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30 April 2009 @ 01:12 am

Well, think of me as that annoying person at dinner who keeps changing their mind as to what they'll have for supper—that's right, I changed my mind. I want to finish at least one of my series, I'm still not all that in love with the idea of fanfiction anymore, but I love writing, and I miss it. if anyone who reads this is interested in re-reading kazoku, or in keeping an eye on everything I put back up and any updating that goes on, go ahead and add the community I created:

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Everything will be posted there, since I don't feel like putting anything else to do with writing on this journal. I'm revising a lot of my oldest chapters, at the moment, but then everything will be up.

You know, if anyone is interested.

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22 February 2009 @ 01:18 pm

Final Act

There is no easy way to say this.
I've erased all my stories, all the ones that mattered to me in some way.

There were a few reasons for doing this but I don't know how to explain them adequately. I don't want to write fanfiction anymore, I don't want to write what I think everyone will like and I don't want to rely on feedback like I had been doing before now. They seem like stupid reasons for stopping; maybe they are, especially because I left so many things unfinished. There were some stories that I really felt merited something and I now feel guilty for suffocating the characters I wrote with identities that were never really theirs, anyway. Maybe the reason I never actually, really tried writing a novel was because it was too comfortable here, with a more or less steady stream of feedback to assure me that what I was writing was not really as bad as I thought. I'm not so sure this is as big a deal as I think it is, though, because these stories were just entertainment for some of you and probably were not taken as seriously as I took them.

But, there you have it. I'm done with this. Maybe I'll write a book, maybe I'll never write again; I suppose it depends on me and whether or not I have the determination to actually finish something on that grand a scale. I'm grateful to everyone who encouraged me, and if you ever happened to enjoy anything I wrote or if you happened to feel connected to one of my characters, moved by something that was going on, I'm thankful. Some stories are meant to be entertaining but others, well, we just hope they'll mean something, in the end. So, here's a thank you and a sorry--there's not much more to say.

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09 January 2009 @ 07:44 pm

An apology of sorts

I suppose I feel that this is warranted considering that I rarely update this LJ anymore--I'm hitting a bit of a dry spot with my writing and it's probably related to having to focus on many things at once and being really tired most of the time. I have a not-so-small obsession with my study of the Japanese language and I guess that's starting to take up most of the extra time I would usually devote to writing. I get in a writing-mood now and again and I certainly haven't simply begun drawing blanks when it comes to the respective plots of my four series but I felt the need, I guess, to simply say that if anyone was getting annoyed with my lack of updates, you can blame university for being time-consuming, Japanese for being awesome and most of all, me, for being a huge procrastinator.

I apologize to those friends who I used to actually keep up with on this LJ ^^" If you want to reach me at my new one, please feel free to send me an annoyed message and I'll tell you what it's called. That one is updated with my boring daily life so... yeah. XD And hey--I actually check my f-page because it's less cluttered. ~~I'm so much nicer now!~~ :D

I guess I'm just saying that my fiction updates are going to be really sporadic or nonexistant for a while because of uni and other things. I'm not sure why I feel I'm so important that I have to announce all this... lolwhut. Oh, and... just a few more days until VANDALIZE is released! I'm so excited! :D

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sheepish

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13 December 2008 @ 12:30 am

NAO IS AWESOME

I know it's huge, but so is the volume of Nao's awesomeness.
Nao needs more love. ♥
(I should be posting an update but I just haven't been very inspired lately--hopefully I'll have some updates by the end of the weekend!)

Current Mood:

geeky

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28 November 2008 @ 09:18 am

Naked Nightmare

I have to say it:
Nightmare's new song, Naked Love, is faking amazing.
I listened to it once and now I'm just addicted; the beat and guitar-work in it is phenomenal. Much like be bueried, I prefer the verses to the chorus (somethin' like that) and just.. wow, guys... I'm blown away. It's awesome. I have to listen to it again; it's just so good! I also listened to gazette's LEECH, finally, which was pretty catchy, too, but I think I like Naked Love better.

Watch the PV [ here ]
It's just pwnage. ohgawdthissongisgood :D

Days until VANDALIZE comes out: ~48 :DD

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excited

Current Music: ナイトメア - Naked Love

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15 November 2008 @ 08:20 am

Pure silliness in haiku-form

So, during my Japanese study group, my friends and I were just goofing off after spending an hour or more practicing all the kanji we knew on the board. Anyway, after a discussion of Haiku, one of the guys decided to write one on the board. And all hell broke loose. Here are two that I wrote:

I'm sorry I couldn't get Rainbows or &sodomy in there. XD

I lol'd so hard writing this one.

( More crap under the cut... )

Current Mood:

amused

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12 November 2008 @ 08:16 am

New Layout... again.

Well, I'm finally done--my new layout, that is. Its design changed about five billion times throughout the last few days, simply because I couldn't decide on the layout's header. I didn't change much in terms of style and simply played around with the font type and the layout's colors, a bit. I think the last time I changed layouts was back in August--wow.
Anyway, the header, here, took at least three hours or more, mostly because I 'burned' the edges by hand because my image program fails. I had to do it twice because the original header had pices of burned paper on it instead. that conveyed the sentiment of the header better, but it ended up not looking very harmonious when I put it up. Oh, lookit me, babbling away. XD

The text (Once upon a time... anyone and no one found eachother but that's not the end their picture burned) was inspired by a poem by Cummings that I read recently and liked a fair bit. My new friends-only banner was... just an excuse to use that gorgeous picture of Leader-sama. XD
Now I'll try to get working on some real updates. ^^"

Current Mood:

artistic

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05 November 2008 @ 08:42 pm

randomness.

This is probably pretty unoriginal as macros go, but I thought it was vaguely appropriate to post now, considering recent events. It's a little old. Oh well. XD

I think I'll stick to alice nine. macros. XD

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01 November 2008 @ 04:16 pm

Music Japan NHK live 2008

unna_rainchaser asked if I had the 2008 NHK live performance of alice nine. (Velvet, RAINBOWS, ZERO) and I do so I'll just put the download links here so that if anyone else is missing the videos, they can take 'em. There are two links--one is a zip file of the .mp4 versions, the other of the .avi versions... don't get excited because they're all low-quality youtube rips. XD
Bah. I wish someone would have recorded and upped high-quality versions of Velvet and ZERO. Atleast the tour DVD is out now... XD

[ NHK performance .mp4 zip file ]
[ NHK performance .avi zip file ]

Current Music: アリス九號．- 蒼い鳥

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20 October 2008 @ 07:52 pm

Smut meme (hogod)

visual_ken told me I should do it. XD
Here it is...

Rules: Randomly pick 12 Jrockers then answer the following questions
I choose...
1. Shou
2. Nao
3. Ruka
4. Keiyuu
5. Yomi
6. Hiroto
7. Asagi
8. Tora
9. Sakito
10. Hitsugi
11. Saga
12. Kai

( All the craziness under here... )

Current Mood:

amused

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19 October 2008 @ 02:36 pm

YA-BAY-YO = CRACK. 8DDDDDDDD

Barely three minutes in, and I am laughing. my. fucking. ass. off. at Nao's laugh.
O.m.s. 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Yay-Bay-Yo show 3 is seriously too amusing for words. I cannot wait for it to be translated. 8D
Half the time, they're just laughing their asses off at what seems to be puns and stupid remarks. omg.♥
~~I should be doing an assignment~~8D

edit: Nao is making me CRY laughing. OMFG. People. [ LISTEN TO IT ].
Nao and Tora reading letters with silly voices is PRICELESS.

Current Mood:

mischievous

Current Music: YA-BAY-YO 8DD

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16 October 2008 @ 03:57 pm

I know it's more randomness but...

Someone said what follows about the picture of Shou:
oh my something wrong wit my eyes but..
shou look like saga in the 2nd pic >

Why did it make me crack up, you wonder? Because it's marginally true? Not exactly. XD
There are two superstitions of sorts that came to my mind right away:
1: People look like their pets after a while ~~Saga is Shou's pet?~~
2: Married couples start to look like eachother after a while ~~Eloped secretly.~~

No more explanation needed, I think. XD
And hey, Shou does look like Saga a bit in that picture. A little bit. Like barely. But a little. XD

Current Mood:

amused

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15 October 2008 @ 07:38 pm

[ Untitled ]

I haven't written a poem in... a very long time.
But since I'm struggling to write actual chapters, I figured I'd try to write something short instead.
I was inspired by my thoughts on the way home.

( That cavity... )

Current Mood:

guilty

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14 October 2008 @ 06:17 pm

Nao ate the subject

LMFAO

[ THIS ] IS EPIC FOR SO MANY REASONS.

Current Mood:

LOLOL

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30 September 2008 @ 09:21 pm

WINK UP 沙我 july

I HAVE FOUND THE SCAN! :D
Unfortunately, it is in chinese. Obviously since I don't speak the language, I have been unable to figure out the password to download the scan. Which is, to say the least, frustrating. Apparently, from what i have been able to see, the password is not explicitly given--it is a hint that is given and you need to figure out the password for yourself. Well.

If anyone is able to read this, and wants to try and crack the password... it would be much appreciated if you would share it. XD

crackheadjo cracked it. And... I feel pathetic. *laughing*
Password: shouhiroto
[ The link to the scan! ]

Current Mood:

offended

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21 September 2008 @ 11:41 pm

Nao ate the subject

*epicflail*
[ This ] made my night. Actually, it made

athenstorm 's night, too.
I am currently speechless.

Current Mood:

eeeeeeeeeeee!

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17 September 2008 @ 06:12 pm

虎虎虎！

I have absolutely no time to post an epic birthday-post tonight, much less time to write it! DX But that doesn't mean I've somehow forgotten our favourite Sexual Black Panther's birthday [a.k.a. Tora]... he's a year older but technically still young (according to him) and totally sexy (according to us). Like a fine wine, the extra year just makes him better. amirite?

Happy birthday to Tora, the one with the strange facial expressions, strange imitations and even stranger dances--alice nine. would not be the same without your unique sense of, erm... something.
If we knew what the 'something' was, you would no longer be awesome.

It's your birthday, 虎, BUST "A" MOVE!!

Current Mood:

working

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12 September 2008 @ 09:14 pm

A reflection on racism and other things

I was watching Dr. Phil this evening, surprisingly because of the topic of the show: the 'N' word. Now, these days, everyone--well, everyone I know, for certain--knows that the 'N' word is a highly charged word (in terms of meaning and historical context) and, not only that, it is controversial, taboo and generally known to most as something that should never be uttered in public--or in private. Many people have very distinct opinions on when it should be used or if, in fact, it should be used at all. The show brought up some interesting points and made me relfect upon my own opinion on the subject and some other closely-related ones. Feel free to express your own opinion, even if it's completely against mine.

( No need to read if you'd rather not... )

Current Mood:

pensive

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07 September 2008 @ 10:24 pm

NEW MOODTHEME.

I wanted to put up a little rubric showing some of the funniest icons in my new moodtheme but my fingers are actually aching after having to install the damn thing. I would put it up for download but the moodtheme consists of Shou and Nao only so... well, anyway, I think I'm one of the only people who has an obsession with just the two of them *laughs*
Ugh. Moodthemes are an absolute bitch to make. ♥

Current Mood:

drained

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